I guess everyone has been where I’ve been recently. Too caught up in the life we live right now to see that there is a world beyond the one we inhabit right now. Too caught up in working, in dating, in problems that life hands us, too BUSY to notice that I have backed up from the one thing in my life that is the most necessary.
I read a meme one time that said ” If God is Distant, guess who moved…” I think about this ALL THE TIME when I pray and feel like I cant feel God or his presence or even feel like my prayers aren’t getting anywhere. I know that its me. I know that I moved. I know that I started backing off of God when I stopped feeling his presence as strongly in my life, I know that I let other things become more important. I know that I let problems differences and issues come between me and my relationship with God. And that is completely, totally, 100% my fault.
So I’ve been praying, despite not feeling God there when I pray, despite not feeling as though my prayers go up any higher than the roof of my car, I have been praying. I know that I am the one who has to seek him. I know that its me who has to find whatever it is that I lost, I have to go after my faith and hold onto it with all that I have. I know that I have to re-evaluate my life and start putting God first again.
I wasn’t sure where this blog was going to lead me. I just knew that I hadn’t posted anything in a long time, and maybe, if I’m struggling, some of you are too.
In our area we recently lost one of the most amazing young women I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. Her faith, as well as her families faith, through everything was solid. She is and should be an inspiration to all who knew her. Her passing has caused me to look closer at my life, would I come through as pure gold as she did? Would my faith be enough to take me through that trial? Would yours?
Job 23: 8 & 9 describes how I’ve been feeling – 8: Behold, I go forward, but he is not there; and backward but I cannot perceive him: 9: On the left hand, where he doth work, but I cannot find him; he hides himself on the right hand, that I cannot see him.
Job 23: 10 describes how I hope the Lord sees me, and definitely how he saw Miranda- 10: But he KNOWS THE WAY I TAKE, After he has tried me, I shall COME FORTH AS PURE GOLD.
In Loving Memory of Miranda Shae Maxwell.